A Rose By Any Other Name

To BabyLove

You may have given me my first kiss,
but you don't own my heart
You may be the sweetest thing on this planet
but saccharine sweetness of you don't taste good to me
You may be a light
but you've only brought me darkness

I have waited for you to grow up
to feel what I felt
I always kept in touch
though we were oceans apart
I thought we were meant for each other
guess I was dead wrong

Your long periods of silence were unacceptable
Your lies were unacceptable
Your selfishness was unacceptable
Your immaturity is unacceptable

I know we made no promises
but the connection was there
I know you never cheated on me
because we have never been a couple
I know I should never have hoped
but hope I did ...that one day we would be

Now we're only a few hours apart
but we might as well be separated by lifetimes
because I don't feel you, want you or need you
Now the tables have been turned
maybe now you'll get a grip
because I don't want your calls, emails or love

Now you want me to maybe read your mind
sending emails that say everything, yet nothing
but I'm never going to say the words you want me to say
If you want me, you'll have to say it
be a man and step up to me
if not, then step off

Your words are too vague
Your hesitance too annoying
Your calls too frustrating
Your praise too generic

I'll say it if you don't
I'll be your lifelong friend
I have known you all my life
I'll never be more than a friend
I know you don't deserve me

posted by lala @ 1:04 PM

7 Comments:

At Fri Mar 23, 03:10:00 AM 2007, Ejura said…

Hi Lala!Thanks for stopping by my blog.I had this friend once whom I got to like so much.He never had the guts to ask me out even when I could see that was what he wanted and that ended up irritating me.Looking back,I'm thinking maybe I should have helped him out a little.Now we're just friends.I still wonder at what could have been [and possibly could still be].I guess I wanted him to grow up,know what he wanted and be man enough to reach out for it.[or is it possible that he did express himself but I never heard him?I'll have to think about that one today].
Have a great day!
At Tue Mar 27, 01:36:00 PM 2007, Azuka said…

Well, Lala sounds like you want him to do the proposition. Goodluck, (and great words).

Ejura: Asking out has nothing to do with being 'man enough.' Some people just can't handle rejection (like me, which is why I've never asked anyone out, even when I saw the attraction was mutual).

Why can't a woman ask a man out? Why do we define such gender-based-roles but still clamor for equality between the sexes?

Think about it. If you asked a guy out and he refused you, how would you feel? Then think of what guys go through to summon the courage to ask women out.
At Tue Mar 27, 05:02:00 PM 2007, lala said…

Haha Azuka, the "man enough" part got to you didn't it? Anyway, I have actually asked him out before, he said he had been waiting for the day we would be a couple but he didn't do nothing to back it. He even let his sister give my email address to some guy.

I don't know ... I don't know
At Tue Mar 27, 06:01:00 PM 2007, Azuka said…

Not really. I guess I can't take it either way -- when someone came on to me, I totally freaked out! I think both ways, there's still a lot of tension -- I know girls who've waited ages for a guy to ask them out then completely freaked out when they did ;-).
At Thu Mar 29, 04:53:00 AM 2007, Ejura said…

Azuka:Why can't a woman ask a man out?

Some ladies are bold enough to and it works out for them but for women like me who have not been so graciously endowed with that boldness, we simply give him 'the right signals' and hope he'll read them.[like Ruth who lay down at Boaz' feet] Sometimes it does work out and sometimes it doesn't.

You've never asked anyone out before? Wow!Anybody can handle rejection.It's all in the mind.They say No,you lift your head up high,shrug and walk away with a cool bounce.The end of the world is yet to come.[Easier said than done sha]Besides,you may be surprised the number of people ready to say Yes to you [even in other stuff besides relationships].
At Thu Mar 29, 07:44:00 PM 2007, lala said…

Lol @Azuka and you too Ejura. We may have to give Azuka Love 101
At Fri Mar 30, 04:40:00 AM 2007, Azuka said…

Ha ha Lala. Who knows? I might need it but I don't doubt I'll make a move if I feel strongly enough about it.

Ejura: The man enough part wasn't what got to me -- it was the implication that by not doing the asking he was being immature (vis-a-vis the reference to grow up).

I'm a fan of equality between the sexes, but if you read a lot of what I write, it usually focuses on [a lot of] women wanting to be equal with men only when it doesn't inconvenience them, ie leaving a lot of the dominant roles to the menfolk.